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Thursday, February 15, 2007

My Bedroom Window is Frost-covered

"Whoah! she posted twice in one week!!"


This is what i'm gonna do with my blog. keep writing and posting the same way i always have.

I worry too much about what other people think. in every area of my life. when i started this, for the most part i didn't care what people thought, partly cause i knew no one knew about it. then i just kept posting cause i enjoyed it and i knew a few other people read it, and at least felt connected to me.

i went back the other day after my last post and reread my entire blog. before my post i had only looked at a few dates. after reading the whole thing i realized that those select dates were just that...a part of the whole thing. sure, there are shallow, poorly written entries. sure, there are ones that i put more thought into...that still didn't end up being all that much. but they are still interesting, at least to me. 'cause sometimes it helps me rememberwhat else was going on at that point of my life. or because it's interesting to see the types of thoughts i was having...so, i'm not gonna change the way i post. at least not make a deliberate change. it's gonna just be how it comes. and probablya lot of sentences will start with 'So'.

i discovered some things in going back. I was really bogged down with homework and i used this as an escape...to procrastinate-my middle name. This isn't necessarily an escape right now (except maybe from dishes) so i got to over-thinking it. I had forgotten that i had an anonymous commenter last year. if i had read itbefore i had forgotten that after our JTT bday party last year my friend beth told me about being in class with him! And wonder of wonders, after my july post about Lord Peter What's-His-Bucket a lady named Anne found me when googling one of his quotes...amazing. So, even though i may have been feeling sorry for myself and the fact that no one reads this...i'm wrong. sometimes people read it. and it doesn't really matter if they do or not. as long as it's fun, i'll post.

Oo, oo, and i think my facebook status is going to sometimes be one of those "Amy is..." google things that i posted sometime last year. teehee.

Oh, and it'll still be somewhat random. i hope. (since i changed the name and all.)

Random Thought: I like to get roses...bush.

Monday, February 12, 2007

Past the 2 year mark...now what?

I started this thing over two years ago. crazy. it doesn't seem like there's much here for as long as i've had it. probably cause there's not much here. a post sometimes barely once a month.

shortly after starting, i quit. for lent. i wonder what or if i should do something for lent this year?

i'm trying to decide what i want to do with it.

i finally started a blog after my roommate had to get one for class. i had been an avid reader of blogs for quite some time prior to this. by reader i suppose i mean stalker, since i didn't actually know many of the people i was reading.

I wrote this last week, but didn't post it, maybe it makes sense, since it's on this same subject::

I have a blog.
I read other people's blogs. Sometimes i feel like i know the people who write them. most of the time i don't know the people at all...i mean at all. i'm a really good lurker. (if i were stalking them i would find their real names and google them and find pictures and home addresses and all that.. but i don't, i just read the stuff they write, that i find through someone i actually know's link...
this makes me wonder if people read mine randomly. and if they are at all intrigued with who i really am. or have any thoughts i have about the people i lurk around. sometimes i come across someone who is probably very nice and cool and i could be friends with, but their blog is... well... boring. i read a bit, but it's kinda stale, so i leave.
i think that's probably what my blog is like. but what do i really want it to be like? do i want to pour out my thoughts here like other people do? because of this i have felt connected with them. that takes vulnerability. do i want to spend the time constructing a well written entry. one that is both grammatically correct and witty (or pithy...a great word)? do i want a little log of what i'm currently doing with my life...a day by day of my journey (it'd either be prettyboring, or i would have to be creative with it.) That's just it..it would have to be creative. that's what catches people... do i want to catch people? is my blog creative? oy...i'm thinking way too much. (especially about what other people think) 02.08.07

If you actually read all that, Good for You!! Gold Star!
Please tell me what YOU think i should do with this blog....

Random thought: Snow comes up, Charlie Brown! Snow comes up!

Monday, February 05, 2007

Random Fact #303

So, a little over a year ago i started to tell random facts about myself. it didn't last long. i also don't really remember what they are. i just thought of one, but i don't feel like looking back and seeing if it's already on here.
...Random Fact #303:
When i eat soup my nose runs. i always thought this was kinda normal. it makes sense, the soup is hot and heats up the sinuses causing your nose to run. it happens to my dad and my grandma. it's normal, right? apparently not. or at least it doesn't happen to everyone.

this random thought/fact brought to you by Mother Campbell's chili. it's quite good. it makes my nose run.
[edit] For clarification: Mother Campbell is Laura's mom. The chili was homemade, and delicious.

Monday, January 15, 2007

soo sleepy

I'm tired. Of what, i don't know.
oh, i know some things that i'm tired of: i'm tired of waiting. of wondering. of being in charge. of not being in charge. of feeling lost. of people asking questions i don't know the answers to. of stress that makes me sleepy. of not having anything to say. of being expected to know what to say. of not knowing what to write on here. of rambling and not making any sense on here.

(is all that really what i'm tired of, or is that just a symptom?)

Something i do know enough about to actually write about: My New Year's Resolutions
1) i will be working on my posture. Nothing like talking to a relative i haven't seen in years to tell me i have bad posture (two years ago). Then of course there's seeing myself in pictures and being reminded of that conversation. oy vey. hence the resolve.
2) I'm going to read one non-fiction book a month. it's so much easier and faster to read fiction. although if i actually get to some of the classics on my list they might count. i also want to read something that challenges me.
3) later, sometime (not a solid resolution, obviously) i'm going to reassess the homeless shelter thing and probably start volunteering again. i think it would be easier if i had someone to go with me though.

well, those are my current ambitions for this year. i think i like the idea of having them on here so that i can come back and be reminded. and maybe help me be more disciplined. maybe.


Random Thought #17:
i really love live music, especially if it's in my living room. ...i miss that...

Friday, December 22, 2006

I know i said i was gonna do a real post, but since i haven't done one yet, and i don't think i could really write anything right now, here's something fun!

this was for my name Green Pea

Your Superhero Profile

Your Superhero Name is The Silver Stalker
Your Superpower is Telepathy
Your Weakness is Bald People
Your Weapon is Your Plasma Bazooka
Your Mode of Transportation is Vortex

These came up with Amy Marie:

Your Pirate Name Is...

Surgeon Bessie Backstabber





Your Band Name is:



The Gagging Leprechauns


I think i'll go to bed now.
Random Thought: Presents are good. They are a chance to say "here, i like you, you're my friend...have something cool."

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

umm, almost a post...

so, i guess it's been a long time since i've posted. or rambled. well, actually i've rambled a lot, just not on here. and, as it turns out, i don't have time to ramble now either. i have to go pack for an early Christmas with the fam. so. maybe i'll try this again later. bye.


Random Fact:
I like great-aunts from Boston.

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

Circulation Supervisor

Meet Tabor's newest hire (at least that's what Kirby said): ME!
yes, i'm still at tabor, and i still work in the library, but not as a STUDENT! Huzzah! No more homework! That's one of the best parts. plus there are tons of my friends in Hillsboro, so it's going to be an awesome year.
well, that's all for now. look me up in the library if your on campus!

Thursday, August 17, 2006

List o' books

OK, so i am most majorly procrastinating...but, as i think i promised, or mentioned earlier, or not, here is the list of books i have read so far this summer.

Guardians of the Singreale - Calvin Miller
Star Riders of Ren - Calvin Miller
War of the Moonrhymes - Calvin Miller
Dirk Gently's Holistic Dectective Agency - Douglas Adams
Long Dark Tea Time of the Soul - Douglas Adams
Salmon of Doubt - Douglas Adams
Mysterious Affair at Styles - Agatha Christie
Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
Watership Down - Richard Adams
Morning Star - Sigmund Brouwer
Wings of Dawn (Magnus) - Sigmund Brouwer
Claudia and the Phantom Phone Calls (Babysitter's Club bk. 2)
.38 Caliber - Roy Maynard
Amos, Obadiah, Jonah - The Message

Currently in progress:
Sense and Sensability
Messy Spirituality
Nesting, it's a Chick thing
Micah
Les Miserables (from last summer *gulp*)

So that just shows you that i have done something this summer, even if it's just reading.

Random thought # 31:
sometimes i don't really mind waiting, but today i hate it.

Monday, July 31, 2006

BBC

So, my parents have this thing where everything on television is pretty much trash (which it is, but i still like to watch it). So i have been getting movies from the library that i think we will all like, cause most evenings i'm sitting at home watching t.v. with my parents. So the thing we all like are mysteries. The BBC kind based on Agatha Christie books and the like. so, (i'm gonna see how many sentences i can start with that word), i make at least once a week trips and try and find something acceptable. Sometimes dad and i catch on pretty quick. I'm also beginning to sound like them, at least in my internal dialogue.
It's kind of an intersting study of the British heirarchy. Apparently most of the detectives have these unknown sources of income, or they are some sort of nobility, that have all the time in the world to go galavanting all over the countryside figuring out whodunit. And a majority of them rely on their hired help as their sidekicks. The British humor that pervades is amazing. They are so cynical and sarcastic. my favorite line, said from one Lord Something-or-other to a secretary whom he was thanking, "May your shadow never grow bulkier." somehow i don't see that going over too well here in america.

sorry this is kind of rambling and rather bad writing, so to anyone who suffered through reading this, May your shadow never grow bulkier!

Random Thought: If carrots make flamingos more pink, would blueberries make them blue and purple?

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

a quick rundown of my summer so far:

work...
cleaning some people's house
helping a caterer
wheat harvest at the elevator
baby sitting
applying for jobs

fun...
hanging out in hillsboro, many times
hanging out with my brothers, sister-in-law, and friends
watching some movies, x-men, pirates...
going to a triple feature drive-in, lady in the water, click, superman
eating
hanging out with my mom
spending a weekend at the lake
getting stranded and having to spend the night places
going to omaha, twice
saw my cousin for the first time in 6 years
read books (i'll post a list when i have it with me)


i guess i just needed to remind myself that i have accomplished something this summer. mostly fun stuff, but that's what really counts anyway, isn't it?

Random Thought #38:
i really like chalkboards. i want a wall or part of a wall in my house to be painted with chalkboard paint and people can draw on the walls. that'd be cool.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Food of Heaven

I love the summer. One of the best things is the food. blts, watermelon, snow cones, corn on the cob, fresh EVERYTHING from the garden, fresh fruit, grilling galor...all sorts of wonderfulness.

anyway, that was a tanget. i was really going to write about the wonderful fourth of july. i got to see a whole bunch of tabor people and it was wonderful. wonnerful. and i'm really sore. pretty sure it's from the water fight. i'm not really used to doing anything physical. pretty sure most of the soreness is from fighting over the hose. ahh, but it was glorious. all of the girls (that played) were soaked. about half of the guys were barely wet. oh, the unfair advantages of size and speed.

it was also great seeing people that i haven't seen yet this summer. and those people that i know from school, but don't really hang out with much. it was a wonderful time catching up and just being in the presence of people i've been used to seeing over the last three years. Some of them i didn't even get a chance to talk to last night, but it was so good to just see them, look at them, if that makes sense. yes, these people are still around, we have a connection, it's like home.

and the food was magnificent. that's probably what got me thinking about food at the beginning of the post. we had brisket, pasta salad, jello fruit salad, watermelon, baked beans, homemade ice cream, carmel apple pecan pie....all heavenly.

Random thought # eleventy-one:
Eastern Kingfishers make very protective parents. just ask my cat.

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Thank God for wireless coffeeshops! Honestly i haven't the patience to check my email at home with the ridiculously slow internet that blocks half the sites i want to go to. And then wonder of wonders, i found out yesterday that the coffeeshop has wireless. it's much easier to come here than to go to dairy queen. it has a better atmosphere, and i know half the people who work here.

anyway. summer is upon us and i should probably let everyone know what i'm up to since i never update...but i'd rather share some scary things that have happened to me. Twice, not once, but TWICE, i have had nightmares. overall they are different so i'm busy enjoying the dream, cause at least then i can see my friends from school, and then it happens. I've realized i've missed something vitally important. a final. Either i'm dreadfully late, or just completely missed it. The first dream was shortly after school got out, so it wasn't too surprising. i was pretty stressed. but the second one was just last friday. i'm supposed to be caught up on sleep and relaxed and everything! but no, i'm suddenly panicking that i now have to reschedule a test, take it before graduation TOMORROW, and pay out the wahzoo to get it done. This is not right!!! I'm done! i don't have anything to worry about! (well, except for cognitive, which i do worry about, but i don't even have a final test for that!)

ok, that's a look into my interesting mind, it makes me wonder and worry about what i might be suppressing.

i haven't done a whole lot since school got out. i didn't get the job at Prairie View, which is probably a good thing. they still have my app. for jobs that would be more fitting for me. i start work today at the grain elevator, so fun fun fun in ElyriaTown. it will mean i'm pretty antisocial for couple of weeks which is sad because i've now had enough of 'home time' and being antisocial. i'm ready to see people, but that's ok. it's money, which will mean i can afford to be social after harvest. let's see this is really long. maybe next time i'll make a list, if i ever post again.

Random Thought: I wonder how long it will take before i'm addicted to coffee if i keep hanging out here... maybe i should go to dairy queen...

P.S. i really hate how long it takes for this to actually appear on my blog, so i apologize.

Sunday, April 30, 2006

Someday i'll post.

Sunday, April 09, 2006

I'm nervous. my roommate and best friend is about to give her senior voice recital. in less than an hour. i always get nervous for her. maybe it helps take some of her nerves away. of course, by the time this shows up on my blog she will be done, and proabably have been done for several days, as it takes my stupid blog that long to update. grrr. anyways, let's hear it for the Wonderful, the Amazing, the Beatiful, JEN!!!!

oh, and i added a link to a game site that i used to be kind of addicted to. my especial favorite is Bubble Bees.

Random Thought: College students should have a year after graduation to catch up on sleep. Then enter the real world.

Sunday, March 05, 2006

I should be doing homework...

W H O . W A S . T H E . L A S T . P E R S O N . T H A T ?

1. You hung out with? Tiffany and prospective Lisa
2. Saw you cry: Val and Rachel R.
3. Went to the movies with you? A bunch of people to see Chronicles of Narnia
1. 4. You went to the mall with? Mom
5. You went to dinner with? Becca P.
6. You talked on the phone to? Mom
7. Said 'I love you' to you and really meant it? Dad

W O U L D . Y O U . R A T H E R ?

1. Pierce your nose or tongue? Nose
2. Be serious or be funny? Depends on my mood
3. Drink whole or skim milk? 2%
4. Die in a fire or drown? Umm, drown?
5. Spend time with your parents or enemies? Parents

D O . Y O U . P R E F E R . . .

1. Flowers or candY? during lent, flowers
2. Gray or black? black
3. Color or Black and white photos? Black and white
4. Lust or love? Love
5. Sunrise or sunset? Sunset.
6. M&Ms or Skittles? M&Ms
7. Staying up late or waking up early? Staying up late

D O . Y O U . P R E F E R . . .

1. Sun or moon? depends
2. Winter or Fall? fall
3. Left or right? right
4. 10 acquaintances or having two best friends? 2 best friends
5. Sunny or rainy? I really do like the rain, but it depends
6. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? Vanilla

A B O U T . Y O U

1. What time is it? 9:33 pm
2. First and middle Name? Amy Marie
3. Nickname(s): Roose, Green Pea, Ames Amiamma4. What is your birth date? October 25
5. What do you want? my homework to be done, but not to do it myself
6. Where do you want to live? some place that feels like home
7. How many kids do you want? No idea
8. You want to get married? Yes

U N I Q U E

1. Nervous habit: sometimes I ramble, but sometimes I do that anyway, sometimes I get quiet, but sometimes I do that anyway too.
2. Are you double jointed? I don’t know
3. Can you roll your tongue? Yes
4. Can you raise one eyebrow? Yes
5. Can you cross your eyes? yes
6. Do you make your bed daily? Heck no

R A N D O M

1. Which shoe goes on first? Probably my right, but I have no idea
2. Ever thrown a shoe at someone? Heck yes
3. On the average, how much money do you carry with you? none

O T H E R
1. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? Depends on the spaghetti and/or my mood
2. Have you ever eaten Spam? Yes
3. Favorite ice cream: I think cookies n cream
4. How many kinds of cereal are in your cabinet? 1, off brand honey nut cheerios
5. What's your favorite beverage? pepsi
6. What's your favorite food? Umm, I like lots of things a lot
7. Do you cook? I can, but I don’t very much

I N . T H E . L A S T . M O N T H . H A V E . Y O U ?

1. Had a b/f or g/f? no
2. Bought something:
3. Most expensive thing you bought? A trip to a Beth Moore conference
4. Sang: yes
5. Been hugged: yes
6. Felt stupid: sure
7. Missed someone: yes
8. Got drunk: no
9. Danced crazy: probably
10. Gotten your hair cut: no
11. Cried: yes12. Lied: possibly?
13. Snuck out of the house: I don’t think so.

Monday, February 20, 2006

Rando

Random Fact #15:

I like emo. ...maybe i should dye my hair black...

Saturday, February 11, 2006

Random Facts #02

So, it's exceedingly harder to think of random thoughts about oneself than i originally thought. and it is also rather difficult to remember them once you thought of them in class, had 2 more classes, ate lunch, took a nap, and then tried to actually write them down.
This is the sad and pathetic fact than i can think of right now.

Random Fact #02: I really like to have red toenails. This is pretty much the only color i paint them. i don't know why, i just do.

Friday, January 27, 2006

Random Facts

whoa. another post so soon? amazing. i'm going to try and be more "cosistent." i'm also going to try a new line of randomness. Random Facts about me. of course, it might be a rather *short* series, cause there are so many random facts about me. anyway, enough of the rambling introduction.


Random Fact #01: I like to stand on things. to use furniture incorrectly. mostly i stand on chairs and sit on tables and desks...that sort of thing.

yup, that's random.

Monday, January 23, 2006

Million years

so, i haven't written in a million years. i'm sorry. i am still alive. i'll actually post something real when i can breathe again.

Random Thought: Dozing in sunny spots is one of my favorite pasttimes.

Monday, November 14, 2005

Fried Cheese?

i'm posting. finally. i should be writing papers or sleeping, but i'm not.

life is crazy. i need to work myself to the bone this week to get everything done that i need to, and most of it will still not get done. i'm trying not to look at the mountain too long or i can feel the knots in my back getting tighter. i'll survive. i always seem to manage.

i love my friends. a lot. all of them. even the ones i haven't seen in forever or talked to in an ice age. even the ones i randomly run into and never really know what to say cause i never knew them very well. even the ones that randomly pop up in my dreams. i miss them a lot. i even sorta miss the ones i see every day.like the ones i see but don't have a chance to talk to. i think i'm in too pensive a mood to do anything other than sleep. needless to say if you're actually reading this then you probably fall into one of those friend catagories, so, thanks for being my friend. i think i'll go to bed.

Random Thought: people never should have introduced me to facebook. now i have a whole new outlet for random thoughts. thoughts like: If purple were my friend i'd skip to the moon.