My Bedroom Window is Frost-covered

"Whoah! she posted twice in one week!!"


This is what i'm gonna do with my blog. keep writing and posting the same way i always have.

I worry too much about what other people think. in every area of my life. when i started this, for the most part i didn't care what people thought, partly cause i knew no one knew about it. then i just kept posting cause i enjoyed it and i knew a few other people read it, and at least felt connected to me.

i went back the other day after my last post and reread my entire blog. before my post i had only looked at a few dates. after reading the whole thing i realized that those select dates were just that...a part of the whole thing. sure, there are shallow, poorly written entries. sure, there are ones that i put more thought into...that still didn't end up being all that much. but they are still interesting, at least to me. 'cause sometimes it helps me rememberwhat else was going on at that point of my life. or because it's interesting to see the types of thoughts i was having...so, i'm not gonna change the way i post. at least not make a deliberate change. it's gonna just be how it comes. and probablya lot of sentences will start with 'So'.

i discovered some things in going back. I was really bogged down with homework and i used this as an escape...to procrastinate-my middle name. This isn't necessarily an escape right now (except maybe from dishes) so i got to over-thinking it. I had forgotten that i had an anonymous commenter last year. if i had read itbefore i had forgotten that after our JTT bday party last year my friend beth told me about being in class with him! And wonder of wonders, after my july post about Lord Peter What's-His-Bucket a lady named Anne found me when googling one of his quotes...amazing. So, even though i may have been feeling sorry for myself and the fact that no one reads this...i'm wrong. sometimes people read it. and it doesn't really matter if they do or not. as long as it's fun, i'll post.

Oo, oo, and i think my facebook status is going to sometimes be one of those "Amy is..." google things that i posted sometime last year. teehee.

Oh, and it'll still be somewhat random. i hope. (since i changed the name and all.)

Random Thought: I like to get roses...bush.

Past the 2 year mark...now what?

I started this thing over two years ago. crazy. it doesn't seem like there's much here for as long as i've had it. probably cause there's not much here. a post sometimes barely once a month.

shortly after starting, i quit. for lent. i wonder what or if i should do something for lent this year?

i'm trying to decide what i want to do with it.

i finally started a blog after my roommate had to get one for class. i had been an avid reader of blogs for quite some time prior to this. by reader i suppose i mean stalker, since i didn't actually know many of the people i was reading.

I wrote this last week, but didn't post it, maybe it makes sense, since it's on this same subject::

I have a blog.
I read other people's blogs. Sometimes i feel like i know the people who write them. most of the time i don't know the people at all...i mean at all. i'm a really good lurker. (if i were stalking them i would find their real names and google them and find pictures and home addresses and all that.. but i don't, i just read the stuff they write, that i find through someone i actually know's link...
this makes me wonder if people read mine randomly. and if they are at all intrigued with who i really am. or have any thoughts i have about the people i lurk around. sometimes i come across someone who is probably very nice and cool and i could be friends with, but their blog is... well... boring. i read a bit, but it's kinda stale, so i leave.
i think that's probably what my blog is like. but what do i really want it to be like? do i want to pour out my thoughts here like other people do? because of this i have felt connected with them. that takes vulnerability. do i want to spend the time constructing a well written entry. one that is both grammatically correct and witty (or pithy...a great word)? do i want a little log of what i'm currently doing with my life...a day by day of my journey (it'd either be prettyboring, or i would have to be creative with it.) That's just it..it would have to be creative. that's what catches people... do i want to catch people? is my blog creative? oy...i'm thinking way too much. (especially about what other people think) 02.08.07

If you actually read all that, Good for You!! Gold Star!
Please tell me what YOU think i should do with this blog....

Random thought: Snow comes up, Charlie Brown! Snow comes up!

Random Fact #303

So, a little over a year ago i started to tell random facts about myself. it didn't last long. i also don't really remember what they are. i just thought of one, but i don't feel like looking back and seeing if it's already on here.
...Random Fact #303:
When i eat soup my nose runs. i always thought this was kinda normal. it makes sense, the soup is hot and heats up the sinuses causing your nose to run. it happens to my dad and my grandma. it's normal, right? apparently not. or at least it doesn't happen to everyone.

this random thought/fact brought to you by Mother Campbell's chili. it's quite good. it makes my nose run.
[edit] For clarification: Mother Campbell is Laura's mom. The chili was homemade, and delicious.